Faith Over Fear

In November, two weeks after Baby A left, we got a call.  There was a little boy in the hospital who needed a foster home, would we be interested? And just like that, my heart was taken.

We brought him home just a week later.  Z was under four pounds, and we were terrified and in love with this precious little guy.

The following month was one of adjusting- lack of sleep, caring for a preemie, but most of all- one of love.  The bond was instant for both Jay & I.  Even through the days of medical issues and sickness, the restless nights- we didn’t doubt this was all God’s goodness.

Several weeks ago, while sitting in church, there was made mention of the Year of Jubilee. I didn’t know much about it, and resolved to study it some more.  The phrase stuck with me, and like that, my coming new year had a title.

Fast-forward in time to the first day of the New Year.  Jay & I are grieving in our empty house- no little boy to cuddle & hold.  Falsely accused- waiting, waiting to hear news.  Still in shock- wondering if it’s all just a bad dream…

The thought flashed through my mind about the Year of Jubilee and I was angry.  When I thought of jubilee I thought of celebration, happiness- and life looked anything but joyful.

But yesterday, we talked a long time about the messy reality that is now our life and we agreed- this is all one big spiritual battle.  It is oh, so easy, to let fear override because really? It all looks impossible for us.

But, God.  “You, dear children, are from God and have overcome them, because the One Who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world.”  I John 4:4 NIV

And this is our motto- Let Your Faith Be Bigger Than Your Fear.  We know that by proclaiming this, the battle will be even more intense.  But we’re choosing to take every step in faith, because we are God’s chosen, He is on our side, and we refuse to put Him in a box because we’re afraid to trust.

This morning I sat down & studied some more on the Year of Jubilee.  And while I’m definitely not an expert, what stands out to me is the proclamation of freedom and restoration.  And my heart soars, because God knew exactly what He was doing when He buried that phrase deep into my heart.

“The Spirit of the Lord God is upon me, because the Lord has anointed & qualified me to preach the Gospel of good tidings to the meek, the poor, and afflicted; He has sent me to bind up and heal the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison and of the eyes to those who are bound,

To proclaim the acceptable year of the Lord and the day of vengeance of our God, to comfort all who mourn,

To grant to those who mourn in Zion- to give them an ornament of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of joy instead of mourning, the garment of praise instead of a heavy, burdened, and failing spirit- that they may be called oaks of righteousness, the planting of the Lord, that He may be glorified.”  Isaiah 61:1-3 AMP

Thank you to everyone for  your prayers, your love.  We’ve been overwhelmed by the support of so many people.  And we want you to join us in praying for faith over fear, because we’ll need to be reminded over and over and over again.

“Let not your heart be troubled: ye believe in God, believe also in me.” John 14:1

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  1. I think of you so often, and send a prayer to our Father on your behalf. My prayer is that those involved would know the truth, and you would feel God carrying you thru this time.

  2. Kendra, I heard about all you are going through, and I felt so badly. Your post is a beautiful testimony! God is in control! I have been praying for you and Jay. Psalm 86:10 “For thought art great, and doest wondrous things: though art God alone.” May you rest in this promise!

  3. Our battle over our daughter felt so very much like a spiritual battle as well. We found when Gods people prayed God moved. Sometimes he brought rest to a new accusation, sometimes he calmed our fears and sometimes he made his presence known in a new and very real way. I encourage you to get a group of people together via email when the fear and pain get to be to much shoot an email asking for prayer. This worked wonders for us. Time and again
    after sending an email because we were so torn up inside, a calm peace would descend and we knew people were praying. It is such a blessing to be part of the family of God during such trials.

  4. I feel too it’s a big spiritual battle going on. Praying against it in the name of Jesus. You and Jay are so inspiring, how you have been through so much, but still look for the good in every situation, and continue to look to God for hope!! He cares for you, He really does, even tho’ it doesn’t look or feel like it right now. Praying you through this! ~ Elsa

  5. I feel too it’s a big spiritual battle going on. Praying against it in the name of Jesus. You and Jay are so inspiring, how you have been through so much, but still look for the good in every situation, and continue to look to God for hope!! He cares for you, He really does, even tho’ it doesn’t look or feel like it right now. Praying you through this! ~ Elsa

  6. Hello, you don’t know me, but i met “your” little Z. last evening. he’s with some of my in-laws and Sandra had just told me of your problem the evening before, and i had no idea that was the baby my in-laws had, till she told me and the dots all connected. just know he’s being loved a lot as he waits to come back to you. i am praying along with others that you will be able to be cleared and reclaim “your son”. God truly works in mysterious ways, His wonders to perform. The battle is real, but if God is for us, then who can be against us? Praying that His perfect will will be done in the lives of all involved, and that you can have peace as you wait on Him.

  7. Know that there are a lot of people praying for you,lifting you up as you wait for the return of your son….love and prayers from my heavy heart to yours

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