In November, two weeks after Baby A left, we got a call. There was a little boy in the hospital who needed a foster home, would we be interested? And just like that, my heart was taken.
We brought him home just a week later. Z was under four pounds, and we were terrified and in love with this precious little guy.
The following month was one of adjusting- lack of sleep, caring for a preemie, but most of all- one of love. The bond was instant for both Jay & I. Even through the days of medical issues and sickness, the restless nights- we didn’t doubt this was all God’s goodness.
Several weeks ago, while sitting in church, there was made mention of the Year of Jubilee. I didn’t know much about it, and resolved to study it some more. The phrase stuck with me, and like that, my coming new year had a title.
Fast-forward in time to the first day of the New Year. Jay & I are grieving in our empty house- no little boy to cuddle & hold. Falsely accused- waiting, waiting to hear news. Still in shock- wondering if it’s all just a bad dream…
The thought flashed through my mind about the Year of Jubilee and I was angry. When I thought of jubilee I thought of celebration, happiness- and life looked anything but joyful.
But yesterday, we talked a long time about the messy reality that is now our life and we agreed- this is all one big spiritual battle. It is oh, so easy, to let fear override because really? It all looks impossible for us.
But, God. “You, dear children, are from God and have overcome them, because the One Who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world.” I John 4:4 NIV
And this is our motto- Let Your Faith Be Bigger Than Your Fear. We know that by proclaiming this, the battle will be even more intense. But we’re choosing to take every step in faith, because we are God’s chosen, He is on our side, and we refuse to put Him in a box because we’re afraid to trust.
This morning I sat down & studied some more on the Year of Jubilee. And while I’m definitely not an expert, what stands out to me is the proclamation of freedom and restoration. And my heart soars, because God knew exactly what He was doing when He buried that phrase deep into my heart.
“The Spirit of the Lord God is upon me, because the Lord has anointed & qualified me to preach the Gospel of good tidings to the meek, the poor, and afflicted; He has sent me to bind up and heal the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison and of the eyes to those who are bound,
To proclaim the acceptable year of the Lord and the day of vengeance of our God, to comfort all who mourn,
To grant to those who mourn in Zion- to give them an ornament of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of joy instead of mourning, the garment of praise instead of a heavy, burdened, and failing spirit- that they may be called oaks of righteousness, the planting of the Lord, that He may be glorified.” Isaiah 61:1-3 AMP
Thank you to everyone for your prayers, your love. We’ve been overwhelmed by the support of so many people. And we want you to join us in praying for faith over fear, because we’ll need to be reminded over and over and over again.
“Let not your heart be troubled: ye believe in God, believe also in me.” John 14:1