Hugged By God- Part 4

Ah, sweet summertime! I’m a summer girl and love the sunshine, the beautiful flowers, the fresh veggies and fruits, and the fun that comes with the season.

Life has been busy around here- lots of work, and lots of play. 🙂

In May, Jay and I headed off to a friend’s cabin in beautiful Potter County.  We had a relaxing weekend filled with fishing, coffee, gorgeous scenery, and some good talks.

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This is the season for lots of walks…

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…for flower-picking and pea-picking…

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…for God’s painted skies…

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…for selfies…

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…for coffee and friends…

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…for fun at a water park and the cabin with family…

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…for lots of time at the pool and time at the beach…

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…for babysitting…

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…and the beauty of summer!

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I was going through the stack of cards we’ve received and was reminded again of just how blessed we are.  God has surrounded us with caring family and friends.

My friends sent gifts to spell out this message…

March2015phone 065…and the intermediate girls Sunday school class gave this box of awesomeness- 31 gifts to open- one each day. I had so much fun with them both!

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It is humbling and overwhelming to realize how many people have been praying for us, have sent cards, letters, messages, or flowers. Thank you isn’t enough, but it’s all I have- so thank you!!

Most of my (teen and adult) life I’ve been involved in some type of volunteer, “mission”, or teaching work, from preschool teacher’s aide to tutor to volunteer at a crisis phone line center to foster mama.

But now, those doors are all shut.  After the events of the past half year, my life changed dramatically.  We’re in the middle of a legal situation, so I don’t feel comfortable giving out many details.  But now- I work at cleaning houses…and that’s it.

It feels like I’m not doing enough for Christ- that I need to be doing something “worthwhile”.

But here’s the thing- Jesus loves me regardless if I teach or am a mommy or if I’m a cleaning lady.  He doesn’t love me anymore when I volunteer or tutor or teach Sunday school.  And if I think He does? It’s my own pride that’s rising up.

We’re called to rest in Christ.  For me today, that means being joyful and content right where I am.  Even when I don’t understand and I don’t know what the future holds- at. all.

It means that I rest in the fact that waiting time is not wasted time.

It means resting in my Savior and trusting that this is all a part of His Plan, and that He loves me.

You see, my unbelief in Him, in ANY area of my life, limits His work in me.  None of this is about me- it’s all about Him.  Always has been and always will be.

Today, I am not called to serve my God in a big, bold way.  I have already, and I may in the future. But not right now.  Right now, I wait.  And while I wait, I serve by digging down deeply; by spending time with Him; by being a wife, sister, daughter, aunt, friend, and witness for Christ.  And right now, that’s enough.

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  1. Oh Kendra, you are doing something for God…you are showing the world by example, how a Christian conducts themselves in such situations. You are portraying how godly faith can grow in the midst of trial. You are an inspiration and blessing to others. I pray for you so often and I cannot wait to see why God allowed this situation to come into your life. God does all things for a purpose. I pray you can someday look back and say, “Now I understand!” But for now the going is hard. Hugs!

  2. Shirley Leathery July 2, 2015 — 10:29 pm

    Kendra, my heart just aches for all you and your husband have to be going through. God is in control and will get you through this. You have our love, thoughts and prayers. This is the first time we got to read your thoughts and you did a beautiful job in putting down your thoughts. So glad you are putting God first in all you do. Love to you.

  3. Kendra, you have been an encouragement to me, in the way you have responded to all you’ve been thru! Praying that God will work out all the details, and that you can soon have your arms filled with little one(s)! Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

  4. You inspire me! And your pictures, just lovely!!

  5. Little Turtle July 3, 2015 — 1:46 pm

    You are the biggest inspiration in my life. I love you and the amazing example you live through this painful chapter in your life. So glad your life book isn’t finished. He has big things to come my girl!!!

  6. Bless your dear heart! I do not know what is going on in your life, but I know God is with you, and He is able to do exceeding abundantly above all we can ask or even think. “The eternal God is thy refuge, and underneath are the everlasting arms.” Deuteronomy 33:27. I am not sure why the Lord had me click on your name when I saw the comment you left on Jo’s blog, but I felt compelled to do so, and so here I am! You have a lovely blog…I will be following you starting now. 🙂 May God work out every detail of your trials and may He turn what satan meant for evil into everlasting good for you and your family. He is a faithful God Who is worthy of our trust!

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